On our final Thursday thought, we end the mass by going to the garden with Jesus. He leaves the dinner and takes three disciples with Him to pray. He knows what is coming and begs that God take it away. I can just hear the desperation in His voice, but then He gives it all to God and says, “I’ll do whatever you want.” I have been in that garden begging that God take me away from the trail that I am in. I go to this reading to be reminded that even Jesus wanted to avoid the trails that were coming. But then I am reminded that God’s will is perfect, and I can rest in what He wants me to do, even when it feels impossible. After His prayer, Jesus goes to find His friends asleep, and is frustrated that they can’t support Him in this, his most anxious hour. As we go to adoration, we sit with Jesus in His agony and remember. We will not sleep.
Matthew 26:36-46 Then Jesus came with them to a place called Gethsemane, and he said to his disciples, “Sit here while I go over there and pray.” He took along Peter and the two sons of Zebedee, and began to feel sorrow and distress. Then he said to them, “My soul is sorrowful even to death. Remain here and keep watch with me.” He advanced a little and fell prostrate in prayer, saying, “My Father, if it is possible, let this cup pass from me; yet, not as I will, but as you will.” When he returned to his disciples he found them asleep. He said to Peter, “So you could not keep watch with me for one hour? Watch and pray that you may not undergo the test. The spirit is willing, but the flesh is weak.” Withdrawing a second time, he prayed again, “My Father, if it is not possible that this cup pass without my drinking it, your will be done!” Then he returned once more and found them asleep, for they could not keep their eyes open. He left them and withdrew again and prayed a third time, saying the same thing again. Then he returned to his disciples and said to them, “Are you still sleeping and taking your rest? Behold, the hour is at hand when the Son of Man is to be handed over to sinners. Get up, let us go. Look my betrayer is at hand.” (NAB)